___forever be true

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**now talking in #crummy mood.
**topic is "get lost."
**set by wling on sun nov 30

it's been a long day..

**___sux` changes topic to 'morning..'
had painting.. met at sch maingate at 8am.. we gathered, then set off.. was playing with yuzheng's hp on the bus.. kept taking pics.. hehs. sum of my pics were artistic.. can't figure out what the object was.. =X heup seng had stomachache.. scare me mann..

**___sux` changes topic to 'reached..'
reached chinatown.. francis (rotarian) briefed us on what to do.. didn't really listen cuz was my third time painting.. figured i knew what to do, more or less.. had to split into groups & was in dilemma.. each group could have only three or four ppl, must have both girls & guys.. me, yuzheng, heup seng, shihui, eileen, guofeng.. how to separate? amirul beckoned to me to join his group.. so i dragged shihui & went over to him & haris (dunno how to spell)

**___sux` changes topic to 'big unit..'
tio a big unit = xtra work.. so suay.. each time i go for painting.. always get one of the biggest units one.. shihui kindda slack.. stand there while i paint.. but everyone did their part larh.. got two guys frm another group damn lazy.. one kept coming over to my unit talk cock.. was irritated by him cuz we were painting like mad while he stood at the window & look at the ppl playing bball match downstairs ._."

**___sux` changes topic to 'ridiculous..'
the couple tt we were helping to paint the flat was racist. they only talked to amirul & haris. why, cannot talk to chinese arh.. the guy keep observing our painting.. then pointed out parts to haris & amirul where he wanted us to patch up.. what the heck. the wall was damn uneven.. paint dunno how many times still so ugly. not our fault right. then i climb up & down the chair like mad.. almost broke my hand & neck painting cuz shihui couldn't reach the higher parts, thus i had to paint those places. shihui & i kept complaining in chinese. it's like, they didn't even let us use their water to clean ourselves at first? what shit is tt.

**___sux` changes topic to 'lunch..'
summore the couple no shame.. still wanted free lunch (was provided if they wanted).. they are not poor! we were supposed to help the poor paint their flats.. this couple, among all, can be counted as the richest cuz they had a com lor.. & the com is quite new. the woman keep giving me this look & i was like: bu shuang me issit. i'm helping you paint yr freaking flat lor. the flat was ultra dirty & dusty.. yucks. summore still wanted us to paint the kitchen!

**___sux` changes topic to 'finished..'
finished everything after a long time. phew. daniel & his friend came over to help.. they quite hardworking.. daniel kept smiling.. his friend didn't smile one.. anyway, i saw mr wong (rotarian) & i ka-jiaoed him. his daughter came along & was like, so bitchy lor. eeeeeeeeeee.

**___sux` changes topic to 'went orchard..'
me, eileen, shihui & guofeng went to orchard after the painting.. took neoprints & i looked like shit. also suddenly no mood to talk or anything, for sum weird reason. felt frustrated & vexed, goshknowswhy. guofeng & shihui wanted to go home & i was like, wah liew.. was just so damn vexed, to the point of crying.

**___sux` changes topic to 'came home..'
came home & i was mostly sullen on the trip home. this fat lady sat beside me & took up my space. grrrrrrrr. then this lady opposite me gave me an unpleasant look & i wasn't even doing anything! glared at her until she looked away.. it's like, what's their prob mann. guofeng commented tt i was so clean, maybe i was lazy & didn't do my work. i was irritated when i heard tt.. it's like, i DID my share lor!

**___sux` changes topic to 'to sum things up.'
basically today wasn't a gd day. think i saw chester at the bus stop near the temple this morning while going to sch? i was like: woah. is tt him? anyway, whateva larh. chester is history.

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**now talking in #stupid.lightbulb.better.stop.blinking
**topic is "!#$@*"
**set by wling on sun nov 16

stupid lightbulb wun stop blinking. irritating can! grrrrr..

**irritated___` changes topic to 'update..'
will update everything i can remember.. hmm.. let's start with..

[13/11] tt nite was.. interesting. cuz jovan came on irc. then they bully me. big fat bullies! even lao po clementine also bully me! they went: sexy jovan! then keep on jovan-ing.. i went: stop jovan-ing larh. then he quit after awhile. was darn happy cuz almost had heart attack when he was around.. scared kelvin they all sabo me. then, jovan joined again! i didnt notice & still went: yay.. jovan quit liaox. THEN i found out he returned. jovan kept: ... then he said his com lag.. so i said: change com larh! =X

[14/11] last day of sch.. tt silly lao po of mine didn't cum. plus i didn't see jovan also. bleahx. bu hao wan de. after sch, me, eileen & huiling went to orchard.. i bought the pink top.. can sense tt huiling dun really like me. wateva. can dun like me for all i care. tt goes for edith too. was late for tution again. =X weilong's bro was waiting for him to go home together.. then the two of them ka-jiaoed me all the way to mrt station.

[15/1] went out with jocelyn & shihui to orchard again. took neoprints.. i'm broke now. hai.. shihui told me clementine missed me. lolx. she said tt w/o me on irc v. sian.. also said clementine said he likes to suan me.. chou lao po! so evil can! anyway clement.. i'm in a better mood le.. tt time was down larh.

**irritated___` changes topic to 'today'
vegetated the day away.. slept like a pig.. think -ahem- coming liaox.. was darn evil to my mum! anyway, had a dream about jovan last nite. or shld i say, this morning.. cuz shihui called until 12plus, deprived me of my beauty slp. =X

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**now talking in #life's not tt bad.. but still sux.
**topic is "still stupid, unlovable.."
**set by wling on thurs nov 6

weilong & i aren't quarrelling anymore.. still haven't decided whether to give him pressie or not. his bdae is tml.

**_wondering// changes topic to 'yesterday..'
patrick couldn't find envelopes.. he was writing to -ahem-.. so i decided to be a nice person & pass him envelopes this morning. so nice right? lolx. was late, rushed to his class to put the envelopes under his desk, then proceeded to avt2 for ss discussion.

**_wondering// changes topic to 'today..'
'strangled' clement.. though i've only known him for goshknowshow many days. *grinx* tt chicken head was pointing to jovan & grinning at me.. then i was like: >.< so i went over & 'strangled' him. jovan saw it! but nvm.. think he knows i'm a mad woman. so anyway, for most of the time i looked at clement, he was giving me tt cheshire cat grin! smile until so happy liddat.. evil!

**_wondering// changes topic to 'after sch..'
saw clement.. once again, he was giving me tt grin.. arghhhhh.. one day i'll go after him with the broom.. hehe. the numbness has started wearing off.. but i dun feel so hurt anymore. occupied with things.. like how to murder clement. tt chicken head! lolx. joefina said tt clement & i 'pei'. i was like: eh? nonono. lolx.

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**connected to because.im.a.gal.org
**now talking in #what the..
**topic is "update.."
**set by wling on sun nov 2

updating on what has happened lately..

**_unpretty// changes topic to 'fri..'
had add maths retest.. freaked out. mind blanked out on me. looked around- kengie was shaking her leg, resting every now & then. jovan was just doing his test like it was no big deal. the guy in front of him was touching his hair. geex. i stared at the paper, the paper stared at me. gonna fail for sure. =/ called him at night. he just went on & on abt cheryl. he blew up at me & i purposely scratched myself. painful, but i felt alive.

**_unpretty// changes topic to 'sat..'
went to raymond's bbq.. happy b-dae raymond! met huaxiong at bus terminal, then we took bus. got lost! huaxiong said he saw playground.. so i said: xia che! xia che! we got off. then realised no playground! so we decided to walk to raymond's house.. it started to rain! so we walked in the shelter.. then we saw a playground! we knew we were wrong but happily called raymond.. said we at playground. hurhur. & it turned out tt.. we were at the furthest away playground. =D had to run in the rain. there was lightning, so we suan-ed tin song, saying tt since he's the shortest, he wun be struck by lightning.. lolx.. went bowling after the bbq.. sure had a fun time!

**_unpretty// changes topic to 'today..'
met min min they all at 8.30 at cck control station. =/ so tired! had the knock knock thing. we went to chinatown & combed a block of flats. asked them if they needed painting, blah blah. so tired! each storey there were abt 20 flats! 21 stories high. bleahx. so went each floor knocking. painting is nov 30. anyone interested? =D we are in need of help.

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**connected to because.im.a.gal.org
**now talking in #gotta b more to life
**topic is "ladeeda.."
**set by wling on sat nov 01

** _unpretty// changes topic to 'outward bound'
went for obs frm 15-19 sept. activities not v. diff but living without hp was.. was in residential.. got into marshall.. instructor was kc..

[15/9] my watch consisted of cheena ppl- two guys, three gals.. we sang 'my bonnie lies over the ocean'.. stood around in circle, whenever we sang a b-word, we sat on each other's thigh.. the part: bring back, bring back, bring my bonnie home back to me.. sing, sit & stand real fast. pure craziness. x)

[16/9]during pt exercise like siao.. morning had abseiling, afternoon had jetty jump. *boing* then kayaking.. got seasick. nite walk in forest.. practically pitch dark.. held on to julianna like mad.. kept bumping & tripping.

[17/9]during pt pumped like s

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