___forever be true

was mood-swinging away today.. mrs goh didn't cum and we had two free periods. x) was at the corridor when diana pushed me and i banged into the wall.. so i was: ahhhhhhhhhhhhh-ing (yelling) away. then just at that moment jovan was walking past at first storey.. then he looked up. can jump down mann. throw my face!!! then joefina was like: wahhh. very loud. lolx. today kept getting gek by xinhui. hai. then during chinese lesson alvin and gabriel kept on making me so fedup. then i cried. but they didn't know larh. but why i cried was not fully their fault. xinhui caused it also. plus i wasn't in a good mood. she keep saying things that made me angry. that's not what friends should say. or act. hai. if she didn't gek me first i wouldn't hit her right? then just becuz i dun want to share in the pressie she kept on saying me. like i owe her one. i wish ppl wouldn't take me for granted. nvm. God is always there for me. roy has been teaching me stuff which is darn useful. he's a very good christian. very devoted. i think he has the makings of a pastor. lol.

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went sajc just now.. roy invited me to go for their life2004 concert. not exactly concert, but whateva larh. i can't stand sum of the sajc ppl's attitude. they ain't sincere at all about serving God. sum of them wun bother about you if you're a non-sajc. what rubbish. if they are serious about serving God, that shouldn't be their attitude. and sure, it's my fault for not being in sajc. well, firstly, did they bother finding out how old i was? i'm sixteen, for goodness sake. i'm not so clever so as to skip one year lor. -rolls eyes- kays, i may not even be able to get into sajc even if i were one year older, but still, why so snobbish? i thought christians are supposed to be good? i wanted to say that they are shitty or sumthing, but i decided God wouldn't want me to say that. ahhhhh. then roy so funny. sent me one sms saying: i'm glad you're home. lolx. home is refering to my stopping of backsliding. you should have heard the pastor. the way he said things.. he said backsliders are worse than sinners. =X

will try to attend church more often. and place my trust in Him. and i want to feel what roy felt. God's pressence. that has yet to happen to me. i dun want the tears part though, okie dokie. sheesh. sumone slap me. i'm spouting nonsense. but i really want to feel God's pressence. i know that part of the reason why i backslided was that i didn't feel that God was there. though that's no excuse. cuz we should trust in Him. alright, gotta go slp soon. still got el enrichment lessons at 8am tml, co at 9, after that will be going out with eileen, then going to the pizza party thing in the evening at bukit panjang.

scribbled` 10:31 PM

happy bdae to my mummy! just got home.. went to eat sakae sushi with my bro and mum.. was my bro's treat. hehs. so i didn't have to pay a single cent. so nice of him. ate quite alot. in fact, my bro said i was a pig. cuz i ate like, either equivilant to him or more than him! mum only ate a little then full liao.. a bit wasted, but heck larh. her bdae what. bro left after the meal, he wanted to walk about before booking in. so after that i walked about with my mum.. then ask her go find sumthing she wants and i'll pay for it.. went giordano and spent $20plus. then left westmall and came back. oh yarh, that jovan knocked into me during recess! then i was like: &!*# cuz i was in a lousy mood. lolx. i even said the f-word a couple of times in class. was feeling that life had no meaning, and that it wouldn't be so bad to commit suicide. =X

oh yarh, last nite blackout. stoopid. i thought was ghost! cuz the light was flickering, then went off. then came on again. then suddenly go off, radio had zzzzzz sound, aircon was off. so i was like: ghost! was so freaked out. then i went to wake my dad and i was so scared lor. whole house so dark. use handphone to illuminate place also abit creepy. blue light marhs. then it turned out everywhere also liddat. so i went to my room and opened the windows. damn hot! was hoping no need to cum sch but aiyarhs. electricity came back! -grumbles- was one scary experience though. like ghost town. my blocks there all so quiet. xinhui said her block damn noisy.. got ppl shouting. lolx.

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lalala. was happily irritating alvin and xinhui with my craze over pinkk. yups. pinkk! i went: pinkk! i like pinkk! see my pencil box? pinkk! my highlighter is pinkk! pinkk pen! i like my calculator cuz got one button pinkk! gawd. you should have seen him. he looked so sick. xinhui said i was sick, so i went: no! i'm in the pinkk of health! hehs. then i continued my madness.. even the sweet i took out was.. pinkk! lolx. then i went: alvin! yr pencil is pinkk! he said it was purple, so i held it against my pencil box, which has different shades of pink, and said: see? pinkk! alvin had that constipated look and went: okay. take it. lolx! xinhui kept saying i was sick, and i pretended to be sad and 'cry' and there were actually tears. mwahaha. they were saying i really should go mediacorp to act.. hehs.

then i saw a pink dolphin bottle and i went: pinkk! pinkk dolphin! the whole pinkkish situation was so hilarious can! laughed until i had tears in my eyes. hehs. oh, another funny thing was that ms loo found out alvin was gonna include cl in l1r5 cuz he had only 6 subjects, and wanted to go jc. you should have seen ms loo's face! she was like: !!! hehs. all of us sitting near alvin was laughing. then ms loo asked nicholas if he was gonna include cl in l1r5, and he said yes! then she asked gabriel and the ans was also yes. hehs. she was so shocked can! cuz she thought they only get a pass can liao.. didn't expect them to include cl cuz they are really weak in chinese. then we were saying that ms loo sure have nightmare cuz of these few ppl. so today was darn funny! yups. i even laughed to the extent i was tired! laughed until no energy left.. then alvin saysaysay me.. was gonna take his pencil box and throw at him.. but no energy left from all that laughing! hehs. =D

scribbled` 8:45 PM