___forever be true

27.o6.o5
i know i can't change yr past;
but it still ticks me off at times.
can't help but make comparisons lahh.
dun wanna elaborate. hmmph.
anyway you know what it takes
to make me happy, so.. -big hint-
i'm DEAD, lahh. 3more weeks to ct.
i know nuts. dun wanna retain!!

[added] may i mention, mankind is >.<
in econs, it's called rational self-interst.
acting in rational self-interest. hah.
if you ask me, it's just plain SELFISHNESS.
isn't that always the case? pfffffft.
i know, i'm thinking too much again.
but, whatever. i dun care.

scribbled` 1:31 PM

21.o6.o5

i hate having periods. hmmph.

[added] was going to praise the bf
about how sweet he was. hah.
only telling the funny part though.
he waited one week to..
get a 'punch', a 'kick' and
a 'middle finger'. oh well.
i'm not mentioning the sweet part (:
but anyway he turned heartless.
jio bao to watch movie but NOT ME.
aiyo.

scribbled` 8:42 PM

2o.o6.o5

waiting for him now. hmm.
still dun see what's so fun
abt online gaming. oh well,
at least it keeps him happy.
and that makes me glad too.
ahah. and did i mention,
my bro and i are gd terms recently.
say you're happy for me (:

scribbled` 6:52 PM

15.o6.o6

what i meant in the previous entry
was that i'm kindda detached? hmm.
dun really know how to explain.
eg, i'm oversensitive at times but
can be insensitive too. makes sense?
ultimately, i do have feelings lahh,
so pls dun run away frm me. hah.
anyway, i miss many friends. pfffffft.
everyone's busy with their own lives.
sighs. and to the-world-is-round guy,
thanks for being a gd boyfriend
and a best friend at the same time.
i can always run to you.. literally.
hahaha. trying to be lame.

scribbled` 7:39 PM

1o.o6.o5

i think i'm devoid of feelings.
sort of, that is. not totally devoid.
eg. sept 11 bombings, tsunami.
basically even horrifying world events
dun seem to have much impact on me.
is my heart too cold? perhaps.
another example would be him.
we've been together for two months.
they say the first few months are the best.
but i dun see myself crazily in <3
once bitten, twice shy? but i doubt so.
and i'm not implying i dun luv him.
i definately do. ALOT.
just wondering why i dun feel
more, in everything. sighs.
can sumone kindly enlighten me?

scribbled` 8:40 PM

o8.o6.o5
i've decided i like s&w afterall (:
touch rugby isn't that bad. heh.
ran two rounds today, and had games.
kana forfeit the most. 3 times lahh.
each time had to say 3 things
abt me which they dunno. pfffft.
then the tch ended off lesson with:
now everyone knows ALOT abt wenling.
hmmph. not fair, kays.

scribbled` 4:18 PM

o7.o6.o5

it's all history. right?
but i still got so many doubts.
you explained to me before,
yet it's of no use. i still wonder.
i really want to believe you,
but deep inside, i still question.
all that happened to her,
it cld happen to me too.
what if one day you feel that
our relationship was a mistake?
will we then call it quits?
maybe you didn't realise it,
but perhaps you did fall for her.
why else wld she say [o5.o2.o5 entry]
"it already start when people
tell u e way he looks at u is different.
e way he do things for u and no one else.
e way he hangs around u.
e things he do." were you lying to her,
or were you lying to me?

scribbled` 8:17 PM

o1.o6.o5

had my first session of pe,
can't believe i chose touch rugby, lahhh.
ran only one round around the track,
and almost died in the process.
shows you how unfit i am >.<
and i have an attachment
with touch rugby (the cca) for 4weeks.
pfffft. been kindda down lately.
does the problem lie with me, or you?
sumtimes it's though we're only friends,
and nth more than that.

scribbled` 7:52 PM