___forever be true

28.12.o5

thought for a long time..
still dun understand why
you keep breaking promises.
say will write me letters.
say want couple shirt.
say want couple handphone.
say will go out often.
say this say that. but?
none of them came true.
hai. maybe like you said,
the things you say are
only to make me happy.
eg. say really want me
to go chalet with you..
really want me to join
the same cca as you..
end up ~~dun want me to.~~
promised me no matter what..
will find me during chalet.
now say finish then find me.
you broke yr promise, & had
the cheek to say i'm unreasonable
just because i got unhappy.
tell me will play games in
consideration. then end up,
neglecting me time & again.
though you say i'm more impt
than games & friends..
yr actions are the opposite.
you game the whole day,
& only call before slping.
other than that, no sms, nth.
you nv ask me out, but you
always go out with yr friends.
just because they wanted to.
where does that leave me?
you dun cherish me at all..
you nv keep yr word nor promises.
i have no trust in you anymore
cuz you keep letting me down.
i dun have high hopes on
having a future with you.
i have no faith in you, anymore.

scribbled` 9:31 AM

27.12.o5

met cheryl for awhile just now..
she looks really happy with juon.
i wish i cld say the same for us
poured out my problems to her..
sighs. we talked abt our guys.
thinking back, sumone DAMN GUOFEN.
& i only told cheryl abt sum stuff.
still got other guofen things.
zzzzz. dun want to think abt it le.
just hope things get better.

scribbled` 6:25 PM

24.12.o5

enjoyed yesterday's 6f gathering.
though only a few turned up, it
was nice to see each other again.
they dragged me to play dota ._."
met clement & we talked abit.
nice to catch up with old friends.
tmr's gonna be even better, cuz
gonna spend it with baby. HEH.

scribbled` 12:45 PM

21.12.05

anyway, on a happier note..
since i've been so gd this yr,
we're spending xmas tgt :D
say you're happy for me. HEH.

scribbled` 11:11 AM

i had a dream abt elohim
but i realised it does not
matter much to me, anymore.
wasn't close to my cell grp
ppl anyway, so it doesn't
really bother me. oh well.

scribbled` 10:52 AM

14.12/o5

i really dun understand why
you must always make me cry.
why is it everything i do,
is never gd enough for you?
am i really that bad? ):

scribbled` 4:32 PM

o6.12.o5

went to support gerald yesterday.
sadly, he got the lowest marks ):
so everyone, pls vote for him to give
him a chance to stay in the comp.
superhost on tonight at 8, chn u.
vote for M2, huang bo rong!

scribbled` 10:57 AM

o5.11.o5

utterly disgusted with sum ppl.
those whom i'm close with shld know..
rather sick of my class. so fake.
but thankful for sum girls though;
you know who you are. cheers (:
going to cheer gerald on ltr.
hope he wins superhost. or at least,
kick a certain sumone out. HAH

scribbled` 2:16 PM

o2.12.o5

happy 8months to baby :D
rah rah rahhh. borborborbor.
our secret language. hah.
so happy we've come so far.
i'm STUCK in sch doing proj.
can't go celebrate. hmmph.
lousy way to spend the day.

scribbled` 5:58 PM