24.o3.o6 results are out & i did badly >.< was quite unexpected, cuz i really did put in effort for this sem. ARGH. felt damn lousy. sumone still said i was lucky. for what, i dunno. that i passed? if that's the case, thanks but no thanks. GRRRRRRRRR. guess i just screwed up my finals cuz commontests were still alright. zzzzzzzz. no more maple addiction. its time to hit the books when sch reopens. & i MEAN IT. PFFFFFFFFFT.
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23.o3.o6 am very tired now. sighs. i've got the cafe job, & tmr's my first day. hmm. hope it will be alright. had to take jab for it. ewww. met up with dear, & went sentosa celebrate zhengji's bdae. kayak-ed & played captain's ball. then they kept calling me da sao. ignts abt that ._." was super worn out & barely managed to stand upright. so dear piggybacked me home. haha. thanks alot. luvyou. results coming out on fri. what if i fail or do badly? & what abt my GPA? HELPP >.<
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17.o3.o6 went for job interview & ended up getting lost. so dumb >.< went to find liangyu talkcock, it reminded me of gd old days. passed bits&pieces at wisma then stood outside staring for awhile. the angel necklace was under the 'you're my guardian angel' series. that's seriously so sweet lahs. think it was under sales column. quite tempted to buy it but then it wld lose it meaning. i'm my OWN guardian angel? NO THANKS. i know you dun miss me, i know you prefer not having to call, sms & stuff. & that really hurts.
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17.o3.o6 i wish you wldn't be hot&cold. i wish you wld be nice to me. i wish i can get the job, $$$$! i wish you wldn't mind so much & go my class steamboat with me. i wish you wld bring me to ss because you wun mind being 'left out' by yr friends. (sighs.) after so many 'wishes'.. what do i really want? to be happy with YOU. yes, you. and only you. ): no matter how bad you treat me, i still have a soft spot for you. ARGHHH. gd for you, bad for me.
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15.o3.o6 i thought things were back to normal. then you had to go ruin it all by saying you're thinking of joining pingpong to freaking get more cca pts for uni entrance. you jolly well know what will happen- you're just gonna neglect me. (even more) already dun spend much time tgt anymore, dun bother convincing me it wun happen.
scribbled` 12:57 AM
13.o3.o6 big girls cannot cry. they musn't. no matter how alone or sad i feel, i must not cry. i will not cry.
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13.o3.o6 after all i've put into this r/s, this is what i get? THANKS ALOT. you give me bad treatment, & have the cheek to say it's my business. as usual, UNWILLING to sacrifice, you want studies, games, friends. tell me, where does that leave me? you made me promise nv to mention breakup, yet you're the one wanting a breakup each time. made so many promises, & ended up breaking all. since you (claim to) <3 me then what's all this rubbish for. huh? broken promises, lies & crap. is this all you've got to offer me? where were you when i needed you. you are supposed to be there for me when i have probs, be my listening ear, & be my pillar of strength. yet, you're the cause of my problems. i've had enough. if you're gonna be like this, no pt in keeping promises. i will leave. and i wun ever beg & plead with you to stay again. NEVER. i deserve better. & i'll repeat, stop taking me for granted. STOP.
