3o.o4.o6 yadayada. say what you want, live in denial, it's fine. :D i wun waste entry space on you. sadly, hols are now history. was busy working & involved in bAoc*o6. dun really regret as the pay's not bad & orientation was fun. heh. the freshies rock. but my dear rocks the most, lah. he wanted to cook herbal soup cuz i wasn't feeling well. so sweet can.
ME & MY LOVE ((:
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scribbled` 12:19 AM
to hui: pls do not feel bad over the whole episode. its really NOT YOUR FAULT. the reason why i blew up is not just because she mentioned him, its the lil' pieces that add up that made my blood boil, which you already knew of, lah. i already said my piece, & she already knows.
no, i'm not a super sensitive freak who will jump out at anyone who mentions or talks to boonyang, if you do toe the line, go ahead. he's my bf, i expect at least some respect. i flared up this time round due to some actions by her being an eyesore to me. BUT, as koped.. humans are an independant being. friction is inevitable. some blame for this show of fireworks also goes to the MALE LEADING CHARACTER. if you listened to me & had clarified things with her, straighten out whatever she misunderstood, maybe this 'big quarrel' wld not have happened. GUYS. NTH BUT TROUBLE AT TIMES. zzzzzz.
scribbled` 2:01 AM
-YAWNS- whatever you want to say lah. you are just talking crap what :D sec4 you liked zhenji, then claimed you liked boon, then suddenly pops out a daniel. both zhenji & daniel has NO GF, who are you trying to kid that its not boon. unless its some other guy? wow. huaxinluobo. FYI, i wasn't born yesterday k. like my freshies said, you are JUST JEALOUS. END OF STORY!!
no more further posts, i wun waste my entry space on you. simply cuz, YOU'RENOTWORTHIT. :D
scribbled` 12:06 PM
BASKET. you did all these in the past & now you dare to say i'm at fault.
Sunday, July 31, 2005 i have this dream.. it depicts wad i have always wished. (>.<) can forgo his gf and we walked ard a relatively empty shopping mall taking neoprints over and over. though they were nv printed out.. it was truly fun to see our photos on the screens of every machine. i was so happie, cos i know we are still very good frens like before. but..
forgo his gf?
Sunday, August 07, 2005 i know this time there're no taking of photos with ur hp already.. & the feeling's not bliss anymore.
feeling's not bliss anymore?
Tuesday, October 11, 2005 harry potter is coming.. yea yea.. i mus catch it. the last time was with boy and hui.
who's the boy you are calling so intimately?
did you even regard me as his gf? did you even care abt how i wld feel if i saw it? NO YOU DIDN'T. so what are you complaining abt? when fq didn't bring my shirt, the both of you didn't even have the decenccy to tell me. just treated me as though invisible and went to him. i'm not invisible, you know. and what abt the day after the 4e3 steamboat? why wld ml ask him if he was not happy that you were talking to eq? she didn't even go. so who gave her that idea? and pls, that time we were already tgt for 4mths. you were one of the first few to know when he started to date me. so if you didn't give a damn abt my feelings, you chose to do all that, what else do you have to say for yrself? are you being fair to me?
you said you 'don wan any bad blood arising from that-sided meaningless emotional upwhirl/misunderstanding..' yeah. like real. think abt it. lets say one day you & ______ steads, some girl does all that to you, write abt him in her blog and everything, how wld you feel? you daresay you wun get angry? THINK AGAIN. he's not even yr bf, you were already so crazy over him in some posts. ever heard of karma? bad blood or no blood, i want my shirt back. its been close to a year. pls tell that to yr gd friend. THANKYOU. see, at least i respect you. did you?
scribbled` 2:50 AM
15.o4.o6 call me oversensitive, whatever. a certain sumone just incurred my wrath again & i'm ready to snap. i dun think its pure coincidence you mentioned him* twice lately. so, in case the msg has not gotten across, pls get this- boonyang DOES NOT LIKE YOU. never did, never will. k? you can reminisce all you want or whatsoever, but its only UNREQUITED LOVE. get it? ask him if you doubt it. pls go away, dun be a pest.
scribbled` 3:25 AM
11.o4.o5 when i got home, the first thing i did was to call you. i didn't even take off my bag. that was how anxious i was. you just gave me cold replies. most of the time i wasn't even sure you were listening, at all. i worked for 3wks+, you only ever fetched me twice. i admit, i'm envious of meicheng. but nv ever thought of comparing. you just put words in my mouth. two days (not even a full day) of meeting, is that too much? you dun even have plans at all. why is it you always think i'm asking too much. & you know i start work at 9 tmr, till 11pm. why did you still have to go pick a quarrel, & make me cry again. you wanted me to wait till you play finish then call you. yet, you were still playing at 12plus. its a fact you dun sms me enough. its a fact i dun see you enough. its a fact i want to spend time with you, as much as possible. i dun mind sacrificing all off days for you, it's worth it. is meeting me such a torture?
scribbled` 1:47 AM
1o.o4.o6 had a heart-to-heart talk with him at the playgrd just now. talked abt past, present & future. i can't help but feel i ruinned my future all by myself. grrrrr. but as long as he is there, guiding me on & holding me close i know i'll be ok. there's hope for a better tomorrow. & no, i dun want to disappoint him, nor me anymore. for nxt sem, i promise i'll try my best. the jump.. it wasn't only just abt trusting him for that moment. was abt trusting him, all my life. & i know he'll always be there to catch me when i fall. ((:
